Elsa ( Mili) Sanchez

Elsa Sanchez (Mili) is my friend. we went to school together, graduated had our children and remained friends through the years. we had son hard times but always came back to eachother. in oct. 2005 i lost my grandmother this was the first close loss i had ever suffered we lost her due to a horrible brain cancer, cancer also our first. then in nov. my friend got ill and was taken to the hospital. i didn't find out for days as she didin't want to worry anyone. but when i saw her i know something was really wrong. within weeks we were told she had cancer, speed all over her body it seemed like a mistake. Mili had 3 small boys, ages 11-4 how can she have terminal cancer what about her boys. as soon as she found out she gave up, she couldn't accept and became unwilling to fight. i couldn't understand why he had 3 boys that needed her so much yet she choose to let go. our classmates got together to raise money to help her get the best treatment she could and we did well but Mili had given up. i celebrated her 38 b-day in nov. 2006 at my house we laughed, we talked, ate even prayed for her. it was so sad to see her fading away at times i would get mad at her as she lost the disire to fight i would ask her what was wrong with her she had 3 boys that neded her to get up and FIGHT for her life, to live each day not die alive. i couldn't understand. when she passed away i was in shock. bue to fam diferences many of her friends decided not to go to the funural. i knew she was not there anymore she was sleeping peacefully.

i never understood her helplessness, that over powering feeling of defeat them on sept. 23 2006 not even a year later i lost my only son from a virus. now i understand that helplessness, that feeling of loss, my friend was grieving her sons while still alive. now i know the pain loss brings, i can understand she was a good mother knowing she was going to have to leave her children, i am so sorry i couldn't see that then.

this past year has left me with so much loss, lonelyness beyond words. a grandma, a friend and a son( joshua renoir perez has site).

i want this site to let Mili know i am proud of her even if it didn't seem like it at the time, to forgive me for my ignorace in not understanding her, to look out for my Joshua, as i will for her boys. that we miss her dearly and will never forget her.